I will be admitted to the treatment place on June 17th
For everyone who doesn’t remember everything that’s ever written on this forum word for word : I will be going there on Sunday evening and then back home on Friday afternoons for 4 months for a treatment that focusses on the body and mind. To help me learn my own limits (emotionally and physically) it’s a psych ward that also focusses on the body/chronic pain or it’s a rehab facility that also focusses on psych stuff
I can’t wait! It’s still a month away… I’m feeling pretty good! As long as I take things slow and don’t overdo things… but even if I do it’s just pain and not emotional stuff… I felt like I was doing nothing with my psychologist after we decided I needed the more extensive treatment… but now looking back I’ve already made so many small steps that I’m not starting from rock bottom but a bit further up
The biggest help for me was to stop being so hard on myself… I was constantly beating myself up for everything I didn’t do perfectly… I felt like if I stopped doing that I wouldn’t do anything anymore… but it turns out the complete opposite! I have room to breath and I don’t get blocked emotionally from the huge mountains I was telling myself I should be moving…
The first time I realised that was when you guys told me if I felt so bad and felt like doing nothing at all… to just do nothing at all… at the time I used it as an excuse to do nothing and thought you were stupid for thinking that would help… but it did so thanks!
Right now I feel like doing a million things! But then I do one and the pain starts again… it’s mostly fibromyalgia pain that gets worse the more I over do it… which is so frustrating because if I take enough breaks I can do a lot… but I forget to take breaks! So then I’ve overdone it and am done for the day… 🤦 but that’s what they will help me with
4 months feel so short! But then I remember how truly bad things were in January and I’ve only had an hour a week at a psychologist… (and you guys ofcourse!)