Grandma J, it's true I'm still having a hard time accepting my condition's reality. I have my good days and my bad days (mentally). It pretty much feels like a nightmare :) I'm afraid of falling into the pit of depression yet again, I'm trying to prevent this from happening. I'm strong, I can learn to live with this, maybe even beat this. I have done it before, I can do it again! I have to keep remembering that.
Seenie, if only I could find the simple answer :) Everything still looks pretty much complicated. I'm sure I'll find it in time... I will be going home in two weeks from now. I can't wait. Being around my mother makes things seem easier somehow, I feel like a little girl who wants her mother right now :). I will stay for three weeks or so, and this time try and really relax! I haven't given myself time off for a few years. I think it's time I did. And my hometown is a much more warmer place :) The difference of weather is like between the North Pole and Hawaii or something :D I think seeing a little sun will do me good as well.
Jules hi, no I don't have the book. I will try getting the e-book version since I live in Turkey and it's not very likely for me to find it here :) And thank you for your support! I thank everybody who ever replied my questions for their support! :)